Monday, June 25, 2007
die die die.. i'm so gonna die this friday.
i'm A/H at Top Table and there's proficiency test. i'm so suck at SSM.
i havent been to 2 SSM lsns before the term break and i was absent too for the practice class during sch break. i know nth abt setting tables, clearing tables and serving others. i'm so f*cked up.
i just felt like stabbing myself in the heart and let it bled till i die. i'm so afraid and biased against SSM for some shit reason. Cos i hate waitressing, but thats one of the skills i gotta learn since i'm a H&T student!
but damn me, i just couldnt pluck up any courage to face the reality. i cant run away forever, but i'll just fluck my test. damn me. i hate myself, seriously.
i dunno how to let out all the stuff tts bothering me, i'll just burst one day, and the day seems near. Someone help please, i'm tearing apart.
jerr-
11:27 PM